Heroin Memorial - 2014/12/07 - Curt Lukens - Age 34 yrs - Cuyahoga Falls, Ohio

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2014/12/07 - Curt Lukens - Age 34 yrs - Cuyahoga Falls, Ohio

Submitted by: Debbie Lukens - Parent

Name: Curt Lukens
State:  Ohio, 44221

Date of Passing: 12/07/2014
Date of Birth: 3/271980
Age: 34 

Tell Us About Them:

We lost a sweet, caring, funny loving son, brother, uncle, grandson, nephew.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

He tried desperately to overcome his addiction, seemed to succeed a couple of times. But it kept creeping back into his life. Never have we witnessed this level of frustration, so sad...


What Made Them Smile?

He was an animal advocate, he loved children and his family, sports fanatic... And was a huge fan of Batman and comic related characters.


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

His contageous laugh i can hear in my head... Daily! I hope it never goes away !!


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I need to know Curt knows how much he is lived and missed! Because he believed that hecwas unloved, due to his addiction. We will never ever stop loving him and hoping to see his beautiful face again !!

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Heroin Memorial - 2015/11/05 - Patrick McGivern - Age 29 yrs - Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania

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2015/11/05 - Patrick McGivern - Age 29 yrs - Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania

Submitted by: Patty Ranallo - Parent

Name: Patrick McGivern
State:  Pennsylvania, 15212

Date of Passing: 11/05/2015
Date of Birth: 3-27-1986
Age: 29 

Tell Us About Them:

Patrick was so kind, thoughtful. Would do anything for anybody. Loved his family. Loved animals. Awesome manners and work ethic.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Patrick fought the disease of heroin for 7 years. Rehab and relapses, halfway houses, even being homeless. He suffered!


What Made Them Smile?

Family, friends camping and fishing. Playing his guitar.


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

Him. I miss him, my beautiful son!


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I am sorry, I tried tough love and it did not work. My last words to you were, "I love you, Pat but I can not watch you kill yourself. Please son, know that I love you more than life! You were my baby, i just wanted you to stop! Forgive me! I hope you are finally happy in heaven. Gram said God took you because, you were suffering on earth. Play your guitar in heaven my beautiful son!

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Heroin Memorial - 2014/09/18 - Josh Zunick - Age 24 yrs - Newton, Massachusetts

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2014/09/18 - Josh Zunick - Age 24 yrs - Newton, Massachusetts

Submitted by: Cheri Zunick - Parent

Name: Josh Zunick
State:  Massachusetts, 02461

Date of Passing: 9/18/2014
Date of Birth: 12/21/89
Age: 24 

Tell Us About Them:

Josh was loving caring and funny


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

He struggled with Heroine


What Made Them Smile?

He always had a beautiful smile when he walked into a room he lit it up


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

He was my best friend as well as my son I miss his jokes and our long talks


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you more than life itself

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Heroin Memorial - 2015/07/29 - Ryan Branscum - Age 27 yrs - Somerset, Kentucky

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2015/07/29 - Ryan Branscum - Age 27 yrs - Somerset, Kentucky

Submitted by: Tabatha Hughes - Sibling

Name: Ryan Branscum
State:  Kentucky, 42503

Date of Passing: 07/29/2015
Date of Birth: 6/28/88
Age: 27 

Tell Us About Them:

Very caring and loving!


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

He tried so hard in and out of rehabs,he was open with his family, but we wern't able to help.


What Made Them Smile?

His Boys, his family,baseball


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

His voice, his smile, him always being there when you needed him! JUST HIM!!


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I guess I love you is what most say but when me when you die where are you going to spend etrintey?

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Heroin Memorial - 2016/02/15 - Kevin Stuhr - Age 30 yrs - La Crosse, Wisconsin

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2016/02/15 - Kevin Stuhr - Age 30 yrs - La Crosse, Wisconsin

Submitted by: Sue Reinsvold - Parent

Name: Kevin Stuhr
State:  Wisconsin, 54601

Date of Passing: 02/15/2016
Date of Birth: 09/12/1985
Age: 30 

Tell Us About Them:

Kevin was a intelligent young man that always tried to act like hard ass, but had a heart of gold.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Like many he started our with pain pills gradually going to heroin. He told me every day he was clean but clearly he wasn't


What Made Them Smile?

Being out doors, hiking, friends, family, his trantula Rose, and his pit bull Lexi.


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss not seeing and talking to him everyday. I miss hugging and hanging out with him. I miss everything about him.


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you, I always have, and always will. I am here to help you.

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Heroin Memorial - 2012/09/10 - Aaron Crook - Age 23 yrs - Thousand Oaks, California

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09/10/2012 - Aaron Crook - Age 23 yrs - Thousand Oaks, California

Submitted by: Alison Crook - Parent

Name: Aaron Crook
State:  California, 91360

Date of Passing: 09/10/2012
Date of Birth: 08/05/1989
Age: 23 

Tell Us About Them:

Aaron was an incredibly handsome, very intelligent young man with the most beautiful smile. He had a great sense of humor.He liked to dress the part, nearly always had a baseball cap on. He was very deep, a thinker but also a worrier, worried about not having enough, not being able to "make it" in life, always scheming on how to make money! He loved animals especially his tropical fish. He had compassion for the mentally and physically handicapped and when he was young it would make him sad. On the outside he appeared to be happy, confident, his friends said he joked a lot but he was often sad and anxious- he put on a brave face.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

He was an AB student doing well at school.He worked in a tropical fish shop at 13. He started smoking pot occasionally in 8th grade but we were not aware until he was a freshman.He would say he was depressed, anxious couldn't sleep and we spent many hours at different psychiatrist offices. He was in his first rehab at 14 which he absconded from. In the early years he often went missing, hanging out at other peoples houses, doing cocaine and all sorts of pills mainly opiates and benzodiazepines. He got transferred to a high school for troubled teens. During this time he was often verbally abusive and violent but when not under the influence he was great to be around. He got in trouble with the police and after a lengthy court case spent time in juvenile hall- visiting him in there was heart wrenching as he was sober and looked so out of place in there,apologizing laughing about himself. I remember, walking out into the parking lot crying thinking this could not be.

During those high school years and community college years he worked on and off. It was when he was 17/18 when at work at the tropical fish shop he was introduced to Heroin. The school would constantly ring me up to come and get him cos of some stunt or other, and once because he had a withdrawal seizure. He was injecting by the time he was 18. During these early years we and the court had him attending drug counseling , anger mgmt etc. We tried every type of love , we were angry tired and frustrated a lot of the time. Both of us worked full time in professional jobs myself as a nurse working nights existing on 3-4 hours sleep, my husband in manufacturing and also part time as a reserve sheriff( Aaron loved that!). We tried tough love, we took nearly every possession from him but he still managed to get money for drugs. He told me once that he had enough rich friends to keep him in drugs for a lifetime. We had moved our daughter out of the house when she was 15 to a safer place because we didn't know what else to do. On his 18 th birthday my daughter and I found him in repot story arrest and had to revive him. We kicked him out at 19 and he lived in his car in our drive way , he couldn't drive it as we took his keys for his and others safety plus he had already had a DUI.We allowed him to come in and shower etc.

This was a very dark time as he was using all the time, he was dealing so he could get his fix. He had a few long term relationships of 1-2 years and always treated his girlfriends with respect . He was friendly with one girl and was at her house one night and called me In a panic to say she wasn't right- I told him to call EMS & drive over there with my daughter, we walked into a scene like something from "Train Spotting"the girl in full on respiratory arrest , Aaron in shock, he helped me lift her off the bed so I could start CPR and then he ran off. The girl survived and that night I gave my son up to the police - this was really one of our darkest hours. I came to find out later that my son did not supply this girl with Heroin she called him over to party and as far as he knew she had been drinking and taking pills , he did not know she had shot up Heroin before he got there, this resulted in another lengthy court case.

Aaron would complain that his hip and legs hurt and I took him to orthopedic Drs and they Xrayed and could find nothing. I noticed when he was asleep or out of it in the car he would rub his legs so I took him to a neurologist and the found he had a fractured spine which they think happened around the age of 14- 15 we narrowed it down either a fall in middle school or a car accident at 15. We felt terrible, we brought him back I the house to try and sober him up and prepare him for surgery-. He weaned himself off Heroin& had a two level spinal fusion.He did amazing in his recovery, staying off drugs. Court case was still going on and was delayed due to his spinal surgery. He now had access to a pain management dr that gave him all sorts of narotics over the next couple of years- he would sell them for Heroin. He went into 30 day rehab just before turning 21 but then relapsed. Now he was getting very sick, very thin . We took him to a methadone clinic which was very successful for a while because it dealt with his back and leg pain( surgery did not get rid of that).

Finally he got sentenced , we begged the courts to put him in rehab but they wouldn't so he weaned himself off methadone because cannot get it in jail- to this day I'm still angry about the judicial system re this because while on methadone he went back to college and worked part time. So he did his few weeks came out and wanted to try life with out it but ended back at pain dr. Then fell at college from too many pills and got a concussion. Finally his supply was cut off but instead of getting better he got worse, and dealing Heroin for his fix really took over. Ended up again with possession or under influence charge and this time got sentenced to 6 months rehab. He went into Salvation Army and because of his back and not being able to do heavy manual labor he left and went into a sober living. After 5 months sober he looked amazing , was working etc and then did Heroin at sober living and got another concussion. We pulled him out and he was truly gutted he lost his sobriety, he was back on track within 24 hours and he rented a room somewhere.He was in a relationship with a sober girl. On Aug 5 we had a surprise birthday party for him with all his sober friends and sponsor and his sister Raquel attending.

He was so happy,he and his sister finally made peace and over the next month talked and texted and for the first time had a proper brother and sister relationship. He looked so well those 6 months, it was like he was glowing. A month later he said he was depressed not happy , he was about rosy art a new job, he thought perhaps he should try antidepressants ( he had not done this in years)and he also admitted he had been taking Xanax that week. We went immediately to his old addiction specialist who had not seen him for few months- she could not get over how well he looked. She gave him a few pills to get him off Xanax to prevent withdrawal seizure and anti- depressants( he never took them) . That day he asked me to take a photo of him, which I thought odd. 3 days later on Sept 10, 2012 one month after his 23rd birthday , I got a call from LA county coroner investigator to say he had been found dead in his room from a Heroin overdose. My husband, myself and our daughter are truly grateful for the 6 months we had him back in our lives. We will never forget him, we did a lot of things wrong, said a lot of hurtful things during those addictive years but we also did a lot of things right , Aaron when sober demonstrated he was very just and kind and a beautiful boy, he will be forever in our hearts.

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What Made Them Smile?

Goofing around with his friends, silly family stuff, our pets, his favorite TV shows.


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

His smile, his laugh, his eyes, his hugs.


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

We love you so very much and we are sorry we could not save you.

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I Want My Daddy Back

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This picture is my son yesterday at his fathers grave this is not right.  The heartbreak I saw when he layed on the ground and cried and said "this is how I layed next to daddy and we would hug each other. I want daddy back!!"

I have a story to tell the love of my life my husband my children's father and my best friend was taken from us from heroin on May 25th 2016 a day before his 29th birthday. We had a true love story from the second we layed eyes on eachother we were married 13 years and his battle started 10 years ago first with weed then with pills and we could fight that we moved away and for 4 years it was perfect he even became a deacon in our church and just over 2 years ago is when he choose to do something that would eventually take his beautiful life and forever change me and my children's lives. As soon as I found out what he was doing I was in disbelief we would take about people who did this and try to help them I couldn't imagine my perfect husband ever doing this he went straight to rehab after just months of doing it when I found out and I thought we would be ok and his addiction was over but it just began I fought for him to stop I know he fought to I did everything imaginable I was even willing to cut my arms off to save my husband and family from death and destruction because I would tell him that if he didn't stop that's what it would lead to I asked if he wanted to die he said no I asked him what would I do without him and how could I tell our babies he died and he assured me that it wouldn't happen he knew his limit!

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I knew what could happen and every day I fought!! He almost died Mothers Day if I didn't break down the bathroom door and call the ambulance! And from that day until he died he was just the perfect drug free husband and father I knew he gave us that or as I say Jesus gave us those weeks just perfect days and as I rolled over on May 25th at 3:30 am and felt the spot he fell asleep empty my world forever changed I knew he had snuck out to go get his stuff like he had done many many times before this time it was different though I had the horrible body shaking experience like I always had but as I walked down stairs to see the back door unlocked that he ran out of and would be sneaking back in I did something different that I had never done before I left it unlocked for him to come back I would always lock it right away and not let him in until he begged and promised he would t do it again but this time I didn't I was going to tell him that I was mad but I knew he messed up and finally understood and we would get back on track and it would be ok! I went upstairs and calmly layed down something I never did before I would usually stay up and smoke my cigarettes and be angry and hurt but I didn't as I layed in bed waiting for him to return I thought of how he could die and what if he did? As I got out of bed at 4:55 am and worried why isn't he home something is wrong he never took this long! I walked down the stairs and as I reached the bottom phone in hand it rang and i knew it was about my husband as my babies slept peacefully I was told he was dead and needed to go see him I help in my shrieks and screams so they would not be woken and my nightmare dream began!

I have a story much more to say but I will keep it short for now and say this drug does not discriminate it has no boundaries it's evil it's soul purpose is to kill and destroy my husband did not look like a addict we had the perfect life he had the American Dream loving wife and children a dog and a cat! We had hopes and dreams we would tell eachother we would be the notebook movie till the end and now that's gone our world is forever changed but I have peace and understanding as much as I my whole heart is gone now I know he's at peace and is in heaven he was saved and I know he knew at the end and repented and went to heaven he's in my heart he's in my children's eyes his story our story will forever be told the good the bad the ugly I would of stayed and fought till the end to save my husband but I understand why he left he didn't want to but he ended my worries and gave me peace from his addiction but I want him back now and would take that pain of worry just to hold him again and have him hug our babies and play with them again! If this touches one person and saves them from this deathly ending then I will smile!! This isn't the way young beautiful people should go my 12 year old son shouldn't of had to carry his father in a coffin I shouldn't have to comfort my babies at night when there crying they want there daddy back or why he will never be able to walk his daughters down the isle on there wedding day or not to see his grandchildren and grow old with me! I beg all the beautiful people to fight for your lives don't let your loved ones hurt like this don't hurt yourself like this!!! Before my husbands death I would look at addicts in disgust but now I understand and I will forever embrace them and tell my story in hopes of saving there lives!!! The only thing I have thought and said and will continue to say as soon as I heard he had died was Phillipians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!!!! 

Please share my story if it comforts others or saves lives! Jason Miller the perfect husband and father was taken from us from something many of us are fighting. I don't want his young life to go without saving others from this ending!

Jennie Stanley Miller

 

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I'm Openly Sharing My Child's Tragedy to Bring Light to the Heroin Epidemic That is Killing Our Future

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People want to know what happens. I'm openly sharing my tragedy to bring light to this epidemic that is killing our future.  It's unfortunate that people are ashamed to tell the stories about their family members who battle drug addiction. Afraid that society will look at their loved ones as being 2nd class, low life people. I am an emergency Nurse who's job it is to save everyone who enters my ER. Once upon a time I too was guilty of being judge-mental of drug addicts or junkies as some would call them. Until it happens to my boy...... MY BOY 

I can assure each and everyone of you that if it can happen to my boy it can happen to anyone of your family members. People who are educated, smart, charismatic, beautiful and have the world in the palm of their hands. Not low life 2nd class junkies. My son Nick Antich was an A student who never got into trouble in school and never caused his father and I much trouble other than a few typical teenage issues. He scored 120 on the IQ test. So dumb he was not. Low life he was not. He was raised in a normal family and played baseball his whole childhood and wrestled in middle school. He was accepted into the engineering program at IUPUI which was his default program only because he did not want to spent 10 years in school to become a doctor which was his first choice. He moved to Indy, attended school as planned. During his sophomore year he started dabbling in drugs. Nothing I would consider hard core drugs but never the less drugs. He was honest to a fault with me and I as his mother, preached not to Screw with that stuff. As you know our kids at some point will do what they want. My boy was smart. He knew the dangers of hard core drugs so I never in my wildest dreams imagined anything serious was happening. I certainly never imagined or prepared myself for journey I was about to embark on 22 months ago.

My son called to say he was sick in bed for 3 days. I knew in the pit of my gut something horrible was not right. My son had been sick a bunch of times since going away to college, no big deal normally. Take some Tylenol and get rest. This time something told me not this time. Something was wrong. I called an ambulance from my job and sent them to his address in Indy. I told my boss something is wrong, I don't know what, but something bad. Jumped in my car and 2 hours later arrived in the ED to see my son curled up in a ball on a cot and nothing has been done. Why? They knew he was going through heroin withdrawal but the mom in me knew something was horribly different and WRONG with my son. due to Hippa they were not able to tell me what was really occurring, withdrawal. Instead my son held up his arm and said mom it's bad. I dropped to my knees and my hell began as a parent. Within 24 hours he was on a plane to Arizona and admitted into rehab for the next 2 months.

After his rehab stay, he moved back home with Jody and I. Within 3 months I once again seen changes and kicked him out. In September of 2014 he came to me and said mom I'm using again. And again in 24 hours he was back on a plane to Arizona for a 2nd stint in rehab. This time he was there for 4 months. He came home Christmas of 2014 and has been clean of Xanax and heroin since then. He worked for the state of Indiana and had been promoted because he was a great worker and mentor to his coworkers. But my boy felt miserable inside and unhappy. Nothing I could do as a mother could fix his mind or his feelings of loneliness. He was diagnosed with bipolar and faithfully took his anti depression meds and followed up once a month with his doctor. He did not want to be miserable. Was my son depressed and that led him to use drugs to feel better, or did the drugs mess up his brain and make him depressed? This question will haunt me forever.

Research proves that mental illness occurred in young 20's. It's like what came first the chicken or the egg. Last week my son worked mandatory 12 and 16 hours plowing during the snow storm, and was stressed and tired. Something went terribly wrong. He got Xanax from one of the many drug dealers in the area. I found out and he said mom, I just wanted to take something to make my miserable job tolerable. Sitting by himself plowing for 16 hours alone did something to him. If you believe Xanax is not a gateway drug your wrong. Once he did the Xanax that was all it took to wake up that devil in him that had been dormant for 16 months. I was petrified last week, knowing in my souls that here we go again. He said to me Thursday mom I would never use heroin ever again. Friday March 4th he went to Indy to stay with some friends for the weekend and then he had plans on going to Bloomington Monday to stay with his sister since he was on vacation for a week. My husband and I flew out Saturday for a weeks vacation to Arizona. Sunday afternoon I got the call that my son never woke up after parting all night and I'm quite sure he used heroin. I don't have toxicology test back yet. But when you drink alcohol, take Xanax ones inhibition or ability to use good judgement or think about the consequences is gone. The boys he was with claim they all were up till 4am and that when they all awoke at 3pm the next day Nick did not.

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So my point is people don't hide this anymore. Share your stories. Get this out there. If it could happen to my boy it could happen to your family. It could be your mom, dad, brother ,sister, cousin, or friend. 

I hate drugs. They robbed my son of his life, they robbed Kasie Antich of her brother, they robbed me and Marc of a life time of happiness and grandchildren we will never have from our son. His wake was a testament to how loved he was with over 450 people attending. He had teachers from elementary through high school who he himself impacted and they came to share that. He just did not realize how much love there was for him in this life. I'm an emergency room nurse with the resources in place to to help my son and he used those resources. Even so i just could not save him, something I must learn to live with forever.

I will be taking some time off work to grieve the loss of part of my life, my first born Nick who showed me what it was to be a mother and feel that love that only a mother can feel. With all my strength I will try to continue on in my endeavor at being a Nurse practitioner and most importantly I will do my best to be a great mom to the only reason I get up each morning, my Kasie and family. Please don't hide this issue anymore. Out of 450 people I have at least a dozen say it happen to them too.

Stacy Taylor - Nich's mom

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Nicholas was born on September 3, 1990 and passed away on Sunday, March 6, 2016.
He was a resident of Merrillville, Indiana at the time of his passing.  Nick had a love for animals.

You can read his obitiuary online here.

 

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Heroin Memorial - 2015/08/29 - Taylor Folds - Age 23 yrs - Olmsted Falls, Ohio

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2015/08/29 - Taylor Folds - Age 23 yrs - Olmsted Falls, Ohio

Submitted by: Barbara Folds - Other Family

Name: Taylor Folds
State:  Ohio, 44138

Date of Passing: 08/29/2015
Date of Birth: 09/24/1991
Age: 23 

Tell Us About Them:

Taylor was my first grandson and lived with me for a large portion of his life. He was loving kind and sad a smile that lit up a room. He was loyal and had many friends who not only liked him but loved him. He worshipped his mom aunt and uncle. He was a hero to his younger brother.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

He truly wanted to be well and struggled everyday. He finally got to the point he wanted to live and just used one more time and died


What Made Them Smile?

He was a happy and loving person and tried to help everyone


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

He was my closest and loyal grandson


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you and miss you more every day. I am glad I am the oldest in the family and will get to be with you next

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Heroin Memorial - 2013/09/24 - Shawn Hacker - Age 26 yrs - Cincinnati, Ohio

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2013/09/24 - Shawn Hacker - Age 26 yrs - Cincinnati, Ohio

Submitted by: Rhonda Moorehous - Parent

Name: Shawn Hacker
State:  Ohio, 45251

Date of Passing: 09/24/2013
Date of Birth: 12/20/1986
Age: 26 

Tell Us About Them:

Shawn was my Angel. Shy and backwards as a child growing into a ladies man as an adult. He loved kids. All the kids in the family loved him he was the favorite uncle,nephew and a great dad to a little girl name Ava. And a bashful little boy Donovan. Shawn love Baseball and was full of Sports Spirit For the Cinti. Reds and the Bengals. He had three brothers 1 older 2 younger. Shawn had been clean almost 1 year when he OD heroin came back in the picture. He also had a side kick the love of his life Kirsten Sheehan. Rest In Paradise baby boy.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Shawn struggled with pain pill addiction and then onto Heroin no money was enough. He began lying stealing and running from all law enforcement. So in and out of prison and jail and rehab for about 4 years. Then death.


What Made Them Smile?

Children


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

His voice and his smile and the way he smelled.


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I am here for you always.

ShawnHacker1

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Heroin Memorial - 2005/07/11 - Kathleen Lynch - Age 46 yrs - Bloomingdale, New Jersey

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2005/07/11 - Kathleen Lynch - Age 46 yrs - Bloomingdale, New Jersey

Submitted by: Kristin Molinaro - Parent

Name: Kathleen Lynch
State:  New Jersey, 07403

Date of Passing: 07/11/2005
Date of Birth: 3/29/59
Age: 46 

Tell Us About Them:

My mom died too young. She was 46 and was funny and loving when she was sober. She adored her grandchild and loved dancing and movies and cuddles and rescuing animals.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

My mom struggled with her addiction from a very young age, alcohol and then prescription pills in any form, uppers , downers... She then found heroin to be cheaper and while she never injected it, she snorted it and the mix was deadly when combined with her heavy drinking. She tried numerous times to get sober and sometimes it would work for a few months but she always went back to heroin and alcohol.


What Made Them Smile?

My daughter Ava made my mom smile. Watching movies together, talking, makeup and hair made her smile. Seeing her family made her smile


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss the missed opportunities of creating this life together with my new children and seeing my babies forge a bond with her is now long gone. I guess I miss the what ifs.... I miss her smell and smile, I miss her phone calls late at night drunk at a bar. I miss her chaos, her noise, her frequency. I miss the smell of alcohol and Violet's chewing gum mixed with sweat and exclamation blush. I miss her drama and her needing me for help.


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

Mom, I am sorry for not understanding your disease more. I wish I knew more about it. I am sorry that I didn't spend more time with you at the end. I am sorry I pushed you away to try and protect my child from seeing you like this. I want you to know that where ever you are now, you are missed and loved and thought about daily. You have left a hole in my heart that can never be repaired. I forgive you for being a sh#t mom but can you forgive me for letting you go ?

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Heroin Memorial - 2012/01/10 - Richie Ramirez - Age 22 yrs - Dix Hills, New York

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2012/01/10 - Richie Ramirez - Age 22 yrs - Dix Hills, New York

Submitted by: Donna Ramirez - Parent

Name: Richie Ramirez
State:  New York, 11746

Date of Passing: 1/10/12
Date of Birth: 8/2/89
Age: 22 

Tell Us About Them:

Most loving son,loved going to movies with me ,we went to the Philippines he loved it there .He loved to travel with me.He was very close to me.To me the sun rose and set with him.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

He had a hard time .when he came out of a rehab once he looked so good.I brang him back to a hospital for detox I was told they only had a female bed available ,I sat back down with my son I figured I would sit for as long as it took for a male bed to be available.I could not believe it when security was called and we were told to leave ,it is hard enough to get them to ask for help but then to turn around and make them feel worthless ,I felt like we had been thrown out .In order to get them in rehab you first have to go to go through detox which is usually five days.In all reality do you really think five days is long enough no way! Then if you are lucky enough to get into detox and make it to rehab it still is not long enough.The only rehab that will work is long term.When my son was turned away the last time in a matter of a few days my son had passed away.So many times I wonder if I had called the news if it would have made them find somewhere in the hospital to put him.Does it really matter which floor they are on as long as there problem is taken care of .If someone comes in with a heart condition they will find a spot for them .But a drug addiction you will get put out . I made a very bad mistake they asked .me to rent a room to an older family friend who was in the street I made the mistake of taking that person in he is the one who started our trip to hell.my son was only trying to help someone that person to me if I had known what he was capable of I would never have let him near my prescious son.


What Made Them Smile?

Richie had many friends he loved doing things .When we went to the water park way out on the island I believe close to Riverhead we got in a water tube and went down together in it.I told him to go have fun with his friends,but he refused to leave my side,in the watertube he was laughing all the way down.We had so many wonderful times together.The Philippines,upstate New York ,Florida beaches ,snowball fights.


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss everything about him .He allways looked for me .He would call me wherever I was.weather i was working or shopping he would call me almost every hour.When I came home we always went somewhere we went to the beach winter or summer,he loved his animals.We would do our laundry together.We would go to the movies together once a week to me it did not matter what movie as long as he was happy.He was allways smiling.


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I would tell him how much I love him, how much I miss him.How much I need to be with him,it is just to lonely without him.

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Heroin Memorial - 2016/01/10 - Michael Gary - Age 30 yrs - Buffalo, New York

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2016/01/10 - Michael Gary - Age 30 yrs - Buffalo, New York

Submitted by: Kiesha Kemp - Sibling

Name: Michael Gary
State:  New York, 14214

Date of Passing: 01-10-2016
Date of Birth: 09-30-1985
Age: 30 

Tell Us About Them:

my brother was one one these most loving caring easily people to get along with father of three kid's that was his world. Sibling of 5 and was one of the best brothers in the world always understanding...


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

he never want to come home think he was going to be judged and want to stop but couldn't because he needed that fix to feel alive.


What Made Them Smile?

Hes personal


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

How goofy loving ,caring he was.


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I miss and love you so much!!

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Heroin Memorial - 2011/06/09 - Jamie Church - Age 23 yrs - Beverly Hills, California

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2011/06/09 - Jamie Church - Age 23 yrs - Beverly Hills, California

Submitted by: Lynne Knowles - Parent

Name: Jamie Church
State:  California, 90210

Date of Passing: 06/09/2011
Date of Birth: 01/03/1988
Age: 23 

Tell Us About Them:

She was my only child. The love of my life.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

She became addicted to prescription pain meds during High School. By the time we found out she had progressed to IV use. She overdosed after 8 months clean. The pain she went through a mother never wants for her child.


What Made Them Smile?

Love...she was so loving and kind. That smile lit up every room.


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

Everything.


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

Jamie, I know your pain is greater than I could have ever imagined. You know you are loved. You are the greatest thing I have ever done in my life. I wish I could take all of your pain. I am sorry I did not understand. I love you.

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Heroin Memorial - 2015/12/24 - Amber Reineck - Age 33 yrs - Pinckney, Michigan

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2015/12/24 - Amber Reineck - Age 33 yrs - Pinckney, Michigan

Submitted by: Courtney Atsalakis - Sibling

Name: Amber Reineck
State:  Michigan, 48169

Date of Passing: 12/24/2015
Date of Birth: 05/09/1982
Age: 33 

Tell Us About Them:

She had a soul of a gypsy, heart of a angel. She was a kind heart soul who never judge anyone.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Amber struggled with addiction for years. Unfortunately she met a guy who introduced her to heroin.


What Made Them Smile?

Her two daughters.


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

Her smile.


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you

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Heroin Memorial - 2015/09/29 - Steven Dunworth - Age 42 yrs - Santa Cruz, California

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2015/09/29 - Steven Dunworth - Age 42 yrs - Santa Cruz, California

Submitted by: Christina Dunworth - Sibling

Name: Steven Dunworth
State:  California, 95065

Date of Passing: 09/29/2015
Date of Birth: 12/29/1972
Age: 42 

Tell Us About Them:

My brother was my first teacher; he taught me how to write my numbers/letters. He was a talented baker, and was very sensitive. He had a huge heart. Steve wanted to be loved the way he loved. He finally found that love within his own son, who he left behind at the tender age of 3.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Steve struggled with many types of drugs before Heroin, but tried it the first time at age 21. He never looked back and was hooked the first time for more than 22 yrs. He passed from severe cold turkey withdrawal. It took four days.. here is a link to the piece I wrote detailing the day he died: https://addictionunscripted.com/jails-institutions-and-death/


What Made Them Smile?

Family made Steve smile. His son Cruz made him smile. True love made him smile; the beach; the sunsets/sunrises. Laughing with my sons... Hugs..


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss everything about Steve, except Heroin. I miss his contagious laugh and hugs the most.


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you, and you are not alone.

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Heroin Memorial - 2014/02/14 - Anthony Cassar - Age 35 yrs - Saint Clair Shores, Michigan

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2014/02/14 - Anthony Cassar - Age 35 yrs - Saint Clair Shores, Michigan

Submitted by: Sheree Dostine - Sibling

Name: Anthony Cassar
State:  Michigan, 48082

Date of Passing: 2-14-14
Date of Birth: 7-2-78
Age: 35 

Tell Us About Them:

Tony was hilarious and loved to act silly to make us laugh. He had a kind heart and big dreams for his future. He loved his family with all of his heart and tried very hard to become who he always wanted to be.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Most of it was kept secret as he was always a very private person plus he lived in Virginia. I didn't even know about his addiction until his death. He suffered from anxiety and depression brought on by childhood trauma. He had a big predisposition to becoming an addict. When he passed it was due to an adverse lethal combination of cocaine and heroin.


What Made Them Smile?

His family.


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

Everything, especially the opportunity to make more memories.


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you more than you will ever know and I miss you so much everyday. The only thing that brings me relief is knowing you're no longer suffering.

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Heroin Memorial - 2016/02/08 - Ceseli Fields - Age 26 yrs - Somerset, Kentucky

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2016/02/08 - Ceseli Fields - Age 26 yrs - Somerset, Kentucky

Submitted by: Sheila Fields - Parent

Name: Ceseli Fields
State:  Kentucky, 42501

Date of Passing: 02/08/2016
Date of Birth: 12/18/1989
Age: 26 

Tell Us About Them:

Ceseli loved everyone, especially the broken. The more broken a person was, the more she would help, advocate for, and love them.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Her addiction was well hidden, a functioning addict. As a family, we never even knew.


What Made Them Smile?

Everything made her smile. She loved life, always smiling.


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

Everything.... I miss her smile, her laugh, her daily I love you texts.


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I miss and love you beautiful Girl. I will meet you at the gates of Heaven.

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Heroin Memorial - 2015/11/13 - McKenzie Woller - Age 19 yrs - Colorado Springs, Colorado

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2015/11/13 - McKenzie Woller - Age 19 yrs - Colorado Springs, Colorado

Submitted by: Laura Burchell - Parent

Name: McKenzie Woller
State:  Colorado, 80923

Date of Passing: 11/13/2015
Date of Birth: 6/17/1996
Age: 19 

Tell Us About Them:

McKenzie was so bright. She loved reading, drawing, painting, and music. She could make an entire room laugh with just one perfectly timed look or a single word. She loved her cats and family fiercely, probably in that order. She advocated for social justice and stuck up for the underdog.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

McKenzie suffered from anxiety and Borderline Personality Disorder. She started cutting in middle school and then got involved with an abusive boyfriend who hurt her physically and emotionally, and introduced her to opiates. She started with dialysis pills an fentanyl lollipops and patches. She switched to heroin. She fought so hard to get clean, and we fought with her. She had just gotten out of detox and moved to CO (with her grandparents)from GA to remove herself from temptation 7 weeks before she overdosed. My mom found her in the bathtub.


What Made Them Smile?

Her brother was her favorite person. They loved listening to music together and they had a million inside jokes. I love to bake and whenever I made one of her favorites, she'd smile her megawatt smile and kiss me on top of my head and say, "It's my best day!" Her cats Biff and Sock made her so happy.


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss her laugh. I miss her wit, and having long conversations with her about politics and feminism and everything else. I miss her scent. I miss her always perfect hair and makeup advice. I miss how whenever she or I came home, she'd lean over so I could kiss her head.


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I love you, and I need you. You are enough. I know that you don't believe that, but you are worthy of a long, happy life, and so am I, and neither of us will have that if you leave. I love you I love you I love you.

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Heroin Memorial - 2016/03/11 - Matthew Paulis - Age 34 yrs - Chicago, Illinois

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2016/03/11 - Matthew Paulis - Age 34 yrs - Chicago, Illinois

Submitted by: Linda Dalton - Parent

Name: Matthew Paulis 
State:  Illinois, 60632

Date of Passing: 03/11/2016
Date of Birth: 2-25-82
Age: 34 

Tell Us About Them:

Matthew was the youngest of 6 kids,he was warm and loving, with the most beautiful smile,and had this crazy ability to take things apart and put them back together,he also had some struggles with self love,but he lived us,and we certainly loved him,I am so sorry my sweet boy.


Tell Us About Their Struggles With Addiction:

Matthew kept that part of his life mostly to himself,I knew about it and tried to help,but he lied a lot about it alot,he took off and I didn't see him for a while but a few years ago we got back together and I discovered that if I wanted to have any part of my son is was going to have to not judge him or harp at him every time I heard from him or saw him,and that while our relationship was going to be difficult and different, we made a deal that I would simply live him and he would not steal from me,I held up my end of the deal,and I loved him and he knew it.


What Made Them Smile?

Matthew smiled at most things,he confused me at times that he could smile so often while in so much pain,he smiled at me when I would come see him,he was homeless but we would meet and have a meal and he would smile when he saw me pull up in the car,and would continue to smile through our whole meeting, but most of all he would smile when I talked about his brother and sisters


What Do You Miss the Most About Them?

I miss his voice,I miss his smike,I miss my boy


If You Had a Chance to Say One More Thing to Your Angel What Would It Be?

I'm sorry my phone was downstairs when you called me at 12:31 am on March 11th because it would have been the last time I heard your sweet voice and that I was not there for you to hear mine right before God took you away, and that I love you and have always loved you with all my heart and soul

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